Less than one month until I make my way to Pennsylvania, and just a few days more until I make my way across the ocean! With the adventure starting in just over a month, it's finally beginning to feel a little more real. I've been stocking up on meds (ugh-insurance!) and hygiene supplies, mailing important forms (yay-Visa is on its way!), and continuing to raise funds (the garage sale was pretty successful!). Overwhelmed by how much there is to do before I leave, I had my first breakdown a few nights ago. Thanks to the BEST family I could ask for, I got to cry and share what I was most worried about before we got to work doing what the Marcus family does best: making lists. Dad and I sat down and made a very detailed list of the tasks I need to accomplish and made a schedule of when and how I would get everything done. I am happy to report that I have made significant progress on this list and everything is falling into place quite smoothly.
It is so easy for me to feel like I need to be the one in control as I prepare, and I am quickly overwhelmed when things don't go according to my plan. But then I remember what we read in Matthew, that we don't need to worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow will worry about itself. Still, worrying is something I do really well, and these days I am constantly having to remind myself to be calm and patient because my job right now is to wait, and that is something I have never been especially good at (just ask anyone who has gotten their "Christmas" present from me in September). So here I wait, not-so-patiently in this uncomfortable time between the work I just finished doing and the place I'm going to call home for the next year. I think this might just be the hardest part.
It is so easy for me to feel like I need to be the one in control as I prepare, and I am quickly overwhelmed when things don't go according to my plan. But then I remember what we read in Matthew, that we don't need to worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow will worry about itself. Still, worrying is something I do really well, and these days I am constantly having to remind myself to be calm and patient because my job right now is to wait, and that is something I have never been especially good at (just ask anyone who has gotten their "Christmas" present from me in September). So here I wait, not-so-patiently in this uncomfortable time between the work I just finished doing and the place I'm going to call home for the next year. I think this might just be the hardest part.